Unbearable Agony: My Fight With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches
It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I worked as a teacher, attempting to manage a new group of students, when a intense pain sprang behind my one eye. This was followed by quick jolts, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then returned with increased intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and ran to the school bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.
The attacks appeared frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headaches.
This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that persists up to several hours.
About 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the condition, and men are more often diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating agony around a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. I have the episodic form, which arrives in periodic cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.
What connects sufferers is the severity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain.
One patient, 74, a chronic patient from Wales, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.
Her family often mistook her attacks as drunken behavior. Support finally came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often concealed her illness. She was dismissed from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in 2002 at a national hospital.
Nevertheless, the inability to plan life around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the small freedoms we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented throughout history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Historical medical texts propose bizarre treatments for what modern experts would classify as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and disappearing daily at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially recognised by international headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the head. Prominent specialists in diagnosing the disorder note this.
In 1998, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.
Despite such advances, identification remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before eventually being correctly identified in recently, after a physician researched his symptoms.
Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, sagging eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first go to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her pain. She thinks dentists still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a support line during an attack in 2021; a calm advisor guided me through oxygen treatment and drugs until the attack passed.
Official guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known individuals.
But leading neurologists argue the guidance need revising to reflect a clearer clinical pathway and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more intense periods require preventives such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.
The national guidelines need revising to reflect a